Sunday, December 28, 2008

No Title....

I have no ideal how to title this posting.....
I almost dont want to talk about this....but I need an outlet... and I need to be strong every where else...I havnt cried over this yet....but I want to... I'm afraid to though...

I was in my bedroom getting dressed and getting the kids clothes together yesterday morning....
I heard my dh call for me...... maybe I was taking too long.... then he yelled for me...there was panic in his voice.... I walked out into the living room to hear my Little Lady screaming her head off, and blood just gushing out of her face.... Dh told me "the F$*$ing dog bit her face!" That he did........ Dh was gonna drive her to the hospital....but I took the towel off and looked at my beautiful baby girl with her mauled face.... and I called 911.

Not only was I talking to the 911 operator...but E was crying that Bucky our former dog had bit L...and he was scared...and Bucky needed to go to jail...and I need to stop her blood...and that L was hurt....
How many ways can my heart really break???

The ambulance came...we loaded L into her car seat and sped off to the hospital.....
It was surreal.... I just saw blood gushing out of her face.... I just tried everything I could do to comfort her......How do you comfort someone like that though??? She's screaming, I'm doing everything I can do to calm her, and I have to answer 100 questions...plus... trying to get someone to watch the boys so dh could be up there with us.....

We finally make it to the ER.... get checked in, get wheeled into the peds er.... and into our room... I finally got her out of the car seat... and just held her.... I wanted to just hold her and pray that it would take away the pain.....my beautiful baby girl.....

The docs finally came in to look at her.... it seemed like hours...but I know it wasnt.... they accessed the damage.... Our fucking dog......he mauled my baby girl..... he tore her face apart.....

One of his teeth went into and through her nose.
Two of his teeth went through her lips...... the right side, he completely tore her lip open from the bottom of her nose through her lip.... it was in two pieces.....
The left side the tooth went in a little under her nose...and completely through her lips....
He tore her tongue completely into two parts from the frenulum to the tip.... he laid it wide open... like a forked tongue......her tiny little tongue was in two pieces....
All from the dog that we fed and loved for 6 years.....

It took two plastic surgeons.....4 other various doctors and 2 nurses to put my precious baby's face back together..... it took a little over an hour...... there was no need to count the stitches... there were way to many to bother.....
On this Friday afternoon, I had to watch them put my baby's face back together....

I keep thanking God that the beast didnt grab her throat.... my baby could have died.... who knows what will happen when a dog bites.....it could have been so much worse....but.... I just cant believe it happened in the first place.....

My beautiful, stitched up little girl is sleeping on me right now.... she couldnt sleep last night.... in 20 minutes I have to wake her up and give her some Tylenol with codeine.... otherwise, she will be inconsolable....I dont blame her... her tongue is HUGE! Her previously little lips are sticking out further than her black and blue nose.....She can hardly swallow....she cannot eat for a long time.... those stitches in her little tongue have to stay in for 3 months.... some of the facial ones will come out on the 2nd.... She just looks horrible.... it's scary.... it's sooo scary to look at her.... She is in soo much pain..and is so miserable... it's so unfair....

The dog..... well my dh called the humane society shortly after our Little Lady was stitched up.... he took him in today to be put to sleep.... I refuse to allow an animal to tear up my baby's face and still walk on this earth....it's a damn animal.... he permanently altered my baby's face..... he could have killed her.... only by the grace of God did she not get mauled to death....
The minute that animal put his teeth on my baby.....he was no longer my pet.... we have been completely betrayed.

My little precious baby cries in her sleep.... I want to take her pain away...but I know I cannot...
No one knows what she will look like when the stitches come out.... the plastic surgeon said she may need reconstruction at a later date.... it's unfair..... it's so unfair.... her pain is senseless.... her scars are senseless......

I'm so thankful that she is alive..... I've been holding onto her so tight..... I'm so scared for her....even though it is now over......
My biggest question though will never be answered.....
WHY??????????????????????????????????????

Hug your babies... and remember that pets are still animals....and it only takes a split second....

36 comments:

Kathy said...

Oh God, Denise. I don't even know what to say. My heart breaks for your little girl and your whole family. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. Take a little time for you and cry it out. I am so sorry.

Bev said...

Hello Denise. I'm Bev from Facebook. My heart is with you, your family and your wee little daughter. I cannot imagine the anger and the pain that you are feeling, nor the betrayl that you and your husband and children experienced. I would be like you, the dog would be gone, how could you ever trust again. I pray that your daughter recovers physically and emotionally in short time and that time will heal all the pain. There are no words to say that can make this better, just know that even though I don't know you, my heart is with you all.

Our Family of 5 said...

OH God Denise!! My heart breaks for you and sweet baby girl. I pray she gets some pain relief and is able to recover from this and you can all get past it emotionally. Sending you loads and loads of prayers and many hugs!!

Tina said...

Denise I am keeping you and L and the rest of your family in my prayers. This is horrible. I am so very sorry.

Bobbi said...

Dear God, I am so sorry!! I am glad that she is still with you. It is terrible when a dog bites. Our dog bit my oldest daughter--not nearly as bad, but I know the feelings.

We stupidly let our vet convince us that it was OUR fault and that she deserved to live. The dog has ended up with another family (Not our original plan) and has bit since. We both regret not just putting her down. You made the right choice. Perhaps there was something wrong with your dog and you did not know, who knows.

Your family is going to need time to recover from this. I will check back.

Kerri said...

OMG...I'm so sorry! l know no words can help at a time like this but know that I'm thinking about you and your precious girl.
Hugs...

Andrea said...

Denise-this is Andrea from FB. I am so, so sorry. Your little lady is a tough girl, and she'll make it through this. I know it's going to be a long road for EVERYONE, so I will keep you all in my prayers. Give that little girl a big hug from all of us!!

Natalie said...

Denise,

I am so very sorry! I am praying for relief from pain and a speedy recovery for your sweet baby and comfort for you and your husband. So sorry!

Mark and Shawna said...

Denise and Kenny,
Our hearts just sank when we read your blog. We are so thankful Luisa will be okay. We had a similar thing happen years ago before Wyatt was born. We had a cocker spaniel and she was very protective of me, but she bit me on mothers day. I loved the dog, but chose to give her away to an elderly couple before Wyatt came. I didn't want to take a chance that she would bite him.

We can only imagine the pain and hurt you are feeling.

Little Luisa is such a precious and special little girl. We are praying that her hurt will go away. We are keeping you in our prayers and you are definitely in our thoughts.

Keep us informed of her progress. Take a deep breath, stay strong and take care of yourselves.

Give Luisa a BIG HUG for us.

Leslie said...

OHHH Denise my prayers to you and your family!!! I know animals are animals and it doesnt matter the breed or the temperment!!

YOur baby is sooo strong she is just tooo sweet for words!!!!

Luv and kisses,Leslie

Amanda said...

I read your status on facebook and came to read your blog.

I'm sure there is nothing I can say right now that would make you feel any better at all, but I am terribly sorry about what happened to your baby girl. I am praying for miraculous healing, for quick healing, and for no more pain. Again I am so sorry. I am also thanking God that she is alive.

Guate4Jack said...

Oh my God Denise, I'm so sorry. How horrible. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

Becky and Jack

Mayan Families said...

Hi Denise, this is Sharon from Mayan Families, I am so sorry to hear what happened to your little one. I just cannot imagine the difficulties you are going through, I wish you and your family the strength to go through this. I have you in my thoughts and prayers.

Dena said...

I can't even see for the tears running down my face for you I don't even know what to say!!!
omg...I am mortified! give that baby a hug for us!

Nicky said...

Oh dear God, Denise. I am just sitting here bawling for you. I am so, so, so sorry this happened. I have no words. You and L and the rest of your family are in my heart. I'm praying for you, and will continue.

Nicky (on Facebook)

Kim & Dave said...

Oh, your poor baby girl!

I am so sorry this happened!

I will pray she heals nicely....& quickly!

Don't be afraid to cry....it will eventually bring some emotional healing for you!

Little Ladybug Designs said...

I am so sorry! My heart breaks for your baby girl and your family. I will keep her and you in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you lots of hugs.

SlushTurtle said...

Denise, I'm so sorry. I cannot imagine all the feelings your family is going through. My sister was bit in the face by a dog when she was a toddler and has nary a mark to show today. Her injuries weren't as severe, but we thought she would have some scars, for sure. It is amazing how well those little bodies can heal. As for the dog, I'm with you. Any animal that hurts my babies is in trouble (my Dad unloaded a pistol into the dog that bit my sister, but we lived in the country and times were different...). I'm rambling, but really I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about and praying for you and the family, and especially your sweet baby girl. May she have some pain relief and quick healing. Hugs (tara from fb)

nora said...

OH my goodness Denise! I'm so sorry! I know that doesn't cut it, but I am extending my sympathy and thoughts to you all. I pray your daughter heals quickly and that you find some peace and relief.

Jenne said...

Denise, I am so sorry. I pray for a speedy recovery for L. ((HUGS))
Jenne

Carrie said...

Oh Denise. That is so awful. My heart goes out to all of you. How unpredictable and out of control you must feel. There are no words. Please know we are thinking of you and praying for you. Take the time you need and we are always here to listen. Know you have friends who are there for you even if we are cyber and far away we are a family.

Pam said...

Oh, Denise. My heart goes out to you and your family and most especially darling little L. I am praying very hard that the next few days and weeks bring much healing, both physical and emotional. I'm so very, very sorry.

Alleen said...

I'm so sorry to read about this tragedy that happened to your baby girl.

I can only imagine the pain you feel as a mommy. Gabriella got burned when she was about 18 months old and I felt horrible, just horrible. Take the time to cry if you need to like others have said.

Muriel and Jerry said...

OMG, I am so sorry. Our dog bit my Sophie in the face on Tuesday and I know exactly how you feel. The pain, that you can't do anything about is heart breaking. I feel guilt and anger at how senseless the whole thing is. My daughter's face will never look the same. I totally understand and am sending you lots of hugs. I am so so sorry.

DJ Holly Rock said...

Oh my gosh! I'm so heartbroken for you. I'm not sure I would have even been able to think in that situation. Just keep holding onto your baby girl. You guys are in my thoughts for sure.

Debbie said...

I am praying for you and your baby girl!!!

Debbie

Michelle said...

Dear Denise: I'm Michelle, mom of a little Guatemalan girl, adopted in 2006. I just read your blog. I was kind of scared to read your blog because a few stories were saying they were so sorry to hear what happened to your family. I knew it would of course be something horrible. OMG! I know there are no words that can describe what you and your family are feeling right now. I hope that your little girl's pain will go away soon. Animals are family also and are very precious to us, but you just never know when they will turn on you. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!!

Amy said...

Denise, I am so sorry for your daughter I am praying for you, one of my dogs nipped Gabrielle and left a tiny scratch, I was furious I cannot imagine what you are going through...You are right animals are animals not just pets...I dont let the girls out of my site with the dogs now.

Gwen, Jenny, & Mia said...

I don't even know what to say except I am so sorry. I will keep L in our prayers and I am thinking of you and your sweet little girl.

Hannah said...

Hannah from FB...I am SO sorry your family is going through this. I wish I had something to say that would help but all I can do is pray. Please know we are praying for your daughter and for your pain too.

Hannah

Kelly said...

OH DENISE!!!!!!!!! I cannot even IMAGINE! I am so so so sorry your sweet little baby girl had to go through this. I am praying very hard for your family and healing for all emotionally and physically! :( {{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}

Gail said...

Denise,
I am in tears for you, your little princess and your whole family. I cannot even imagine the pain and anger you are feeling. I am getting ready to go to bed and think I will go get my little princess from her crib and bring her to my bed. I want to hold her for the night.

I will be praying for quick healing for your little one and as little pain as possible (or less).

Rhonda said...

Oh my gosh, I am sitting here with tears literally flowing for your little girl and you and your family. How incredibly horrible to have to go through. There are no words but please please know we are thinking of you and sending you many hugs and prayers.

Laurie said...

Oooh my Denise! I can't imagine. I'm keeping you in my praying your little Princess heals super fast, your boys come to some sort of understanding or acceptance and you find peace and rest. Big hugs!

Darla said...

Denise, it's Darla from FB; just read about your precious little Princess and my heart just broke. I cannot even imagine how you have been feeling....it's so incredibly horrific to experience what you and your have family have just gone through especially for your baby girl. You are all in my prayers.
Darla

Carla said...

Denise, I am so sorry. I am crying with you my friend. Your precious daughter and family will be in my prayers.