Hunger and Anger

First off... A huge thanks to those of you who have prayed for us, sent good wishes, and left messages for us. It is highly appreciated.

Today a little of the swelling has gone down. I know our little girl is HUNGRY! We have been worried about her staying hydrated also so we have been offering her anything and everything we can think of. Last night she finally drank some pediasure stuff... It really helped her to sleep and she slept for almost 3 hours straight till her meds wore off.
Today at lunch, she was grabbing at everything on the table. She was able to eat a little bit of mushy scrambled eggs and a little bit of the inside of a meatball. For dinner she ate a little bit of meatloaf and a little mashed potatoes and gravy. Of course I have no ideal how much she is actually getting in her stomach. Her tongue is soo swollen that she really can't use it to move food around. So, she has to get the food far enough back to just swallow it down. She is getting a little more aggressive also. I know she is mad she doesn't feel good and she doesn't know why. She sees her brothers and they are up and playing yet she cannot. They eat, but she can't.

Her little brothers are suffering also. They have been asking and even demanding to have their dog back. They all began crying after church because they asked if we could go get Bucky out of doggie jail so he can come home.... I again explained that once a dog bites someone, the dog can live with people anymore. I was even promised by E that bucky wouldnt bite anymore.... E would make sure that he didnt..... It's not fair to those boys.... they saw their sister get bit... (well... we at least believe that E saw the attack...the others saw the aftermath)... now they have lost their dog too.... they dont understand.... they are too young.... they are also too young to understand that it will take a while for L to heal.... L has been sleeping with me...and they want to also.... of course I cant take that chance.... and it hurts them....I know it's not a physical pain...but still... it's pain to them...and it's not fair..... I know life isnt fair...but just wish my kids didnt have to learn that at such a young age....

Little L went down with a fight tonight..... she usually falls asleep shortly after her medicine.... It's a good thing...but still.... I'm sure it is scary for her...tonight she clawed at my face and hit me for a while...until she fell asleep....
Rationally.... I know that it's not my fault...but still.... I almost feel as if I deserve to be hit by her. I'm supposed to be protecting her. I was supposed to make sure she was safe..... thought she was..... I was wrong.... and our Little Lady is paying the price.
She is asleep now..... my beautiful little angel.... Just so thankful that her injuries are superficial....and that her brothers are mourning a dog...and not a sister......