Yummm....Food.....

I ate today!
It took half a bottle of Motrin and perfect timing....but damm it, I was hungry!
I had some chicken soup for breakfast, refried beans with cheese and sour cream for lunch, and some Chinese food for dinner! Dh even bought be some chocolate ice cream! It's empty next to the computer now! My stomach is upset at me.... but hey... I ate!
Yes...it still hurts.... but at least I'm hurting on a full stomach!

I didnt sleep at all last night.... dont know why.... my throat was bothering me but something else was also. I talked to one of my college buddies last night online. I haven't talked to her in a while basically cuz I have been depressed lately and I tend to just stay within myself during those times. Anyways.... it got me thinking bout all the friendships I have gained and lost over the past 10 years. Some I miss like crazy.... some, I was crazy to even be in them to begin with.... but overall, I do miss some of my college friends.
There were a few I was very close with.... although now that my life doesnt revolve around liquids, I wonder if there is still hope? I mean that set of my friends dont even know I have flippin kids! Uh....geez.... guess THAT would cut down on my partying a tad! Yea... I can see it now... getting invited out... having to explain I have to find a sitter... Oh you have a kid? No, I have 4 kids!
And yea.... the weird thing is... I kept my kids from them on purpose. I also kept my marriage from a couple of them....but I finally bit the bullet and let them in on it. But the kids... i dont know. Dont ask why...but I'm weirded out by some of them knowing I have kids. Like I haven't grown up yet or something.... or maybe I'm afraid of the judgement. I am the only one who has kids...... Maybe I know what they think a "mom" is... and I dont want that label? I dont know... it is weird though. Shit...what would I do if I saw someone out and about with my clan o' toddlers??? Uh... oops! Yea...guess it would be forgivable to not mention one....but to not mention 4???? Then again.... maybe no one would care. Maybe they would just look at it as something "I" would do and brush it off as that.
I do know that I will have to keep college stories away from my kids. I dont want to give them any ideals on how to spend one's first 3 years away from home! Not my kids!!!! *cough*

Since I didnt sleep last night, I crashed this afternoon when the boys took a nap. Had my weird house dream again.
I, along with the boys, are living with my parents... up north... in a 3 story house that has a few businesses in it also. It's so weird. Like my bedroom is in the offices.... the boys live in the "living" part with my parents.... I have to pass this doll shop to get to my room.... and one of the dolls is possessed.... there is also a real estate office, a hair dresser, and a vacant office. Oh...and of course, my bedroom. Today's dream, I was driving around town with my dad and a guy we both worked with.... on our way to a bar, in one of my dad's old vans, while I chatted away to a bunch of bikers on the cb. Yes... that's right.... bikers in the middle of March with snow.... and on the cb. I was even using my "old" handle....
I have now had this dream many times..... it is just so weird. I dont get it....I know this may sound strange....but I have the same dream over and over (not this dream though) when I have migraines.... dont know if it is the migraine medicine or the migraine itself.... with this house dream.... I cant find a connection.
I had a friend who could interpret dreams.... many of mine go to the dark side.... bet he'd have a field day with this new one though!
Hopefully I have some non-memorable sleep tonight!
That's a 10-4 from Auggie Doggie and Auggie Doggie Jr!

Still Here...

I didnt fall off the face of the earth. I'm still here. I'm still in my cocoon (aka...my bedroom)

I officially was diagnosed with Strep throat yesterday.
Funny...but the diagnosis didnt make me feel any better.

Now I am on huge horse pills.... that I can barely swallow anyways.... a regular cycle of motrin... and I have been able to eat a little bit. I'm so glad I've been able to eat...cuz damm... I've been so hungry. However, I still have no energy to do anything.... I spend a lot of time sleeping an hour here, an hour there....I dont dare go near the kids....I sure dont want them to get this.

Combined with my sickness is my sickness of waiting for L's bc.
I really thought we were due this week.... it was our 30th official business day.... well pooh on that....
Next week... we will be waiting for our bc longer than we were in pgn. Who would have ever though I could say that??? Seriously???
Maybe it is a combo of me not feeling good with the never ending wait....but damm... it just has been wearing thin on me.
Hopefully I will be able to leave the house this weekend. We so need to go shopping and such...and I know that dh needs a break from the kids....I just need a boost of energy.
Hmmmmm... Red Bull gives you wings!!!!!!
Yea.... that's what the world needs.... me, sick with strep, pissed over waiting on a bc, with Way too much caffeine in my system! Oh yea.... that's not asking for something bad to happen!
2 words come to mind: Verbal Diarrhea.

Sicky

I have been sick as a flipping dog.

My throat hurts so bad....every time I have to swallow, I sit there, think about it, try to put it off, then end up doing it.... I shake violently and silently scream when I have to swallow. My neck is swollen, my ears hurt, and my throat is miserable. I have no voice, no energy, and can barely get my pills down (Thank God for Advil!!!) I have been absolutely miserable since Sunday night. Thankfully, no one else is sick... and I am trying my level headed best to make sure it stays that way. The kids sure dont need this.
Dh is supposed to call the doctor for me in the morning.... we will see if I can get in... I think I either have strep or tonsillitis... yes... me... I am an adult with my tonsils... what a great choice that was!!!! Actually, minus my acl in my right knee... I'm not missing anything yet. Well...adnoids....but...uh... I dont even know where those are...so for me, they dont count. Sure wish I didnt have my tonsils though.... that is why I have such horrible sore throats...problem is,I am petrified to have them taken out now. I have only heard horror stories about adults having them out.... heck... I've heard horror stories of kids having them out...not to mention the random adult that bleeds to death at home.... The only way I would let them do it is if they gave me some really good pain meds...cuz I wouldnt put myself through my past 3 days on purpose! When I cry cuz I dont want to swallow....uh... problem.

My sickness has consumed my life....but I did find out that Bret is retiring. *cries*
Barak only won one state *cries*
and we STILL dont have a birth certificate for our little Lady *cries*

Ok...so.... that should be enough negativity to go around for a day or so.
Cant wait to see the doctor!

Sunday Shopping

Well... we now have another car seat!!!!
Brand new!

We also have a new purple dress with a little white sweater!
Brand new also!

What are we missing???
Someone to put IN these two things!!!!!
Ok...well I guess the boys could go in them...but they would probably tear the dress up to bits and pieces. That would make me cry...cuz even for a dress... it is absolutly beautiful!

Praying to hear some news from Mixco this week.....

It's March

Whew... can NOT believe it is March 1st already!
Time sure flies when you barely have time to even pee by yourself!

I wonder what March is going to be like???
I know we have Easter to contend with in the middle of the month... I know that I am going to have a childless weekend doing an SCI show!!!! *dances* E will be the b-i-g 3 at the end of the month!!!!
Will we have spring early??? Will we have more snow??? Will we finally get our damm bc???
Things are so up in the air...so dh and I have decided to plan a small cruise get-away before our little Lady comes home. I've been scouring the internet looking for the perfect itenerary and ship and I belive I have found it... I just need to call tomorrow and make sure they have the cabins available that we want. Yes...I said cabins... 2 adults and 3 toddlers does NOT equal one cabin the size of my closet! I can hardly even stand just dh and I in a cabin...so yea.... ajoining rooms are a MUST and we are actually going for a room with a window!!!! OOOHHHHH!!! A window!!!! Fancy!!!! Yes... we have been cheap on our previous cruises...but who the heck needs a window... we never spent any time in the cabin unless we were sleeping so.... a window wouldnt have helped us know it was nighttime... staying in the bar till 3am told us it was time to sleep!
Of course we are going on a boat that has activities for the young ones....dh and I are just debating on whether or not to make this a diving trip. Every ounce of my being wants to dive every single day of this cruise... but the responsible adult in this situation tells me that we are already going to be travelling with 3 toddlers and THEIR gear... adding two more suitcases of dive gear to that...uh.... just how many hands and such do I have??? Also... what will we do with the dive gear in the cabin??? I know that dh would FLIP out if the kids got to playing with our dive computers and such (ok...I probalby would too) so...why have things that are so off limits to them. Plus... I think it would be fun to just take them to the beaches and hang out and play. Dh and I can take our snokling stuff and one of us can do that while the other is with the boys... I mean in the carribean, many things are at resonable depths any way...so I know we could see fish and such.... Yea.. I know... it is sooo NOT diving...but, it just takes a lot of planning and such to dive on a cruise like this...and I'm not sure I want to deal with it.... I want to relax... (as much as I can on a ship with my three toddlers!!!)
So...we will see...but my vote is to not do it! I think we can have a fun and relaxing time though... cuz I know when the baby comes home, things are gonna be different... its been a while since we have had a non-walker in the house.... although...I guess it is possible that she could come home already walking.... Another difficult point may be if she is not eating food yet... like people food...not baby food. That is one part I dont miss at all... what a pita dealing with baby food. I was so happy that even at 6 months old, E knew how to chew...and he didnt want baby food much past 9 months old. Not only is that stuff just gross.... it is just so inconvient. I love being able to put food in front of the munchkins and let them have at it! I sure dont like having to spoon feed with the threat of getting it back in the face! It's also expensive... I did try to make some of my own...but it seemed to be even more disgusting that what I bought in the store! I didnt want E to think all of my cooking was like that...so I just didnt do it after that.
Well.... I promised myself to do at least an hour of scrapbooking tonight... I have began to get away from it again! Just when I was doing sooo well! Hmmm....how rotten would it be to contract my scrapbooking out??? *evil grin*